Even when I was a young child
I struggle with insecurity
For someone to pay attention to me
All I wanted was to make
My Mom and others proud
I covered up all my faults
By being silly and very loud
I never did fit in a special group
I always felt really lame
So I tried to be some iI wasn't
And my life became a game
I engulfed myself with drugs
I was where I shouldn't be
I was where I shouldn't be
I thought I was having fun
That iI was alive and free
After I was a mom and "grown"
I still had no clue
That it was time to grow up
I still lived how I wanted to
My babies grew up to think
I was sick and didn't care
I let them down so many times
I partied and wasn't there
I continued to put men first
And think I was so in love
I continued to run from God
My savior from above
Now I sit and think
How long has it been?
Since I have been lost and stuck
In this downward spiral of sin?
I am glad to say today that I'm on a great start
To living a healthy Christian life
Where me and girls won't be apart
I gave my life to Jesus
It's not my battle anymore
He's been steadily knocking on my heart
And I Finally opened the door
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